A Personal Note on New Beginnings.

A Personal Note on New Beginnings.

I apologize for the radio silence over here throughout the past few weeks – I’ve been dealing with some big changes in my personal life and had mistakenly thought that I could just dive back into blogging in the new year but I wasn’t quite ready yet. Today’s post is a bit of an overdue New Year’s note; it’s one I’ve written in my head countless times over the past month and am finally ready to publish. Thank you for listening and supporting, now and always.

Shortly before making the big move from New Jersey to Chicago, I had a robin tattooed on the left side of my ribcage. It was a symbol of hope and readiness for new beginnings, as each year the return of the robin marks the beginning of spring. That little robin seemed to bring me good luck as later that year I had the opportunity to make a huge change and move to Chicago, one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

2017 has started off with a different kind of new beginning, a new chapter that I’ve been spending a lot of time reflecting on and processing over the past few weeks. After a rocky few months, B and I officially decided to go our separate ways in the new year. It was a decision of many tears and heartbreak and while we are still sorting out plenty of details, we are moving forward.

After four years I’m left feeling a bit lost and confused about what’s next and have been using my little robin as a symbol of what’s ahead in this new year that isn’t quite shaping up as I had planned. In moments of overwhelm, I’m taking time to pause and think about the new beginning that’s ahead instead of letting the past and somber future bury me. Choosing to see the light, even in the darkest of times, isn’t always easy… but I’m doing my best to embrace the change while not forgetting the love and adventure of my relationship with B.

A new year. A new chapter. A new beginning.

  • Maggie Vincent

    I’m so sorry to hear. Having a relationship end is so difficult, regardless of the circumstances. Take as much time away from the blog as you need, make your emotional well being your number one priority.

  • So sorry, Cait. No apologies necessary for taking a step back from the blog to process things and take care of yourself. Extra Callie cuddles are definitely called for and don’t ever feel bad for putting yourself first. Here if you need to chat or for some reason want to leave the warm weather for an NYC weekend. Sending you cross-country hugs!

    xx
    Sam

  • Hugs to you, Cait. Sending lots of light and love your way for a positive 2017. ❤️

  • Goodness. This is certainly sad to read. I hope you both end up in a happier spot over time. xx!

  • Prioritizing yourself is the best thing you can do in these circumstances! Then prescribe yourself wine, Soulcycle, carbs & lots of time with girlfriends. Hugs to you friend!!

  • Cait, I’m so sorry to hear this, but better to figure these things out sooner than later. I know you have amazing things in store for you this year and can’t wait to see them play out :) sending happy thoughts your way!

  • Samhita Pennathur

    I appreciate how candid and open you are on such a public space. Just know that you sharing this is helping 1000s of women out there who are also in a similar position. Sending positive thoughts your way.

  • This was so honest — thank you for sharing. You have a beautiful outlook on moving on from heartache and I know many women reading this need the support and example <3

    -Clarissa @ The View From Here

  • Oh girl, I am so sorry to hear! Good for you guys though to be honest with yourself vs getting caught up in the wedding hoopla. I’m sure this will be one of those things you look back and know happened for a reason, so hang in there and remember things will get better little by little!

  • I’m so sorry to hear this Cait, I’m sure this isn’t easy for you. I’m sending all the love and happiness I can to you, it is better to find out now rather then down the road. I’m know you have some great things in store this year and can’t wait to see what you accomplish! :)

    xo, Sarah

  • Courtney Rhone

    I’m sorry to hear this but I appreciate and admire your honesty. I hope the new year brings you comfort, peace, and wonderful new beginnings.

  • So sorry to hear this. Sending a virtual hug your way!

  • lauren

    Wishing you well from AZ. I’ve been following this blog since we both lived in Chicago, but I’ve moved further west as well.

  • Christa Marzan

    Cait, just seeing this post now but I am so sorry to hear about your break up. Thinking of you and hoping 2017 brings you peace and serenity. Drinks on me next time you’re in NYC xo

  • Oh, I could have written this myself. I broke up with my own B (literally – same initial) on the 3rd of January, after more than 7 years together. It hurts and I’m still feeling a bit shakey – I’d gone from thinking I knew what the next 5 years looked like to no even knowing where I’d be living within a week – but I’m really starting to embrace the excitement. A new apartment decorated the way I want, the ability to book any travel I want to without trying to find a compromise/somewhere we both wanted to go.

    It’ll be hard, but we can do it xx

  • Aw Cait — I’m so sorry to hear what happened. But, you were strong and independent before, and I’m sure you will find inner strength and bravery to move forward with this new start. Sending you hugs and well wishes for better things ahead in 2017!

  • I’m so sorry to hear about this Cait, but I promise you will look back on this time someday and be so grateful that it left room for bigger and better things for both of you. I can say from experience after my own broken engagement following a more than 4 year relationship. And as a fellow blogger, take a step back when you need to! Your readers will be here when you are ready to come back! Sending big hugs! 2017 is bringing a whole world of exciting possibility.

  • Nicole

    I’ve been MIA for a while and am just catching up on all your recent posts. I’m really sorry to hear about this, but I’m sure that amazing things are in store for you. Cheers to new beginnings and a rewarding 2017. :-)